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Jul. 19th, 2007 | 05:34 pm

These little girls.
So fake so thin.
Steal you blind.
Your heart, your men.
Finger down their throat.
Extensions in their hair.
When nothings real.
Nothings fair.
Have you ever lost something u wanted so bad?
Missed something that you've never had?
I scream, I yell..
I bitch && swear.
I pretend I don't.
But I'll always care.
Nothing's realistic.
Society is cold.
Their bodies are mended.
Their souls have been sold.
Falling in the spiral.
They're pathetic yet great.
Everything I wish I was.
But everything I'll forever hate.
They're beauty with disgust.
They're fragile & so bare.
Maybe they're a little sickening.
But the world can't help but stare.
Bones showing so boldly.
Fat never in place.
Every realistic girls nightmare.
We want their body, their face.
I'll never sell myself short.
I'll forever live un-deprived.
Those who eat can live.
Those who starve never survive.

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Jul. 16th, 2007 | 11:14 pm

I've gotten into another writing mood and my writing always sucks but i posted anyway.<3

Skin a little pale.
Heart a little cruel.
She's not your average diamond.
But she's still a pretty jewel.
With a face a little angry.
And language a little obscene.
She's far from perfection.
But she's still a perfect queen.
Sell your bullshit lies to another pretty face.
Because this obscene bitch has more expensive taste.
Morals stand so boldly.
Lies make the world go round.
She's marked with stars of inspiration.
And a note to mark her sound.
Call her pefect.
Call her fake.
What you receive.
Is what you make.
Hypocrits she hates.
But Hypocritical she'll remain.
Just to be in control.
Just to be somewhat sane.
She'll spit a little heartache.
She'll maybe break your face.
Mommy's little monster.
Daddy's little disgrace.
Not the average design of simplicity.
She's powered by hate.
Designing her own existence.
Designing her own fate.
Lithium every morning.
A double dose at night.
Just to make cure the anger.
Just to rid the fright.
Self-Respect is what she owns.
She'll always stand her ground.
Never sell yourself short.
Pride is what she found.
Attitude to the bone.
And passion to the core.
The little bit of nothing.
The little pleasure whore.
You're something I wish I was.
I'll watch you paint your face.
Wishing for a bit of glamour.
If only but a taste.
A wild imagination.
Intelligence to make you frown.
She'll work to elevate you.
Just enough to bring you down.
Jealous and obsessive.
Yeah that's right.
Always ready for a battle.
Always willing to fight.
Smoke and drink.
Have a little fun.
She's her own dose of insanity.
The only true one.
Eyes to cut right through you.
Words to make you break.
She spits honesty like a bullet.
More than the world can sometimes take.
She wears her temper a little boldly.
And her skirts a little short.
She's more than you'll ever know.
More than the human sort.
Elegantly Wasted, your lipstick sells the lies.
Every hero comes to a turning point.
Every legend dies.
Blast beats and madness.
Makeup && the ability to not care.
Maybe she's a little retro. 
If  you don't like it, then don't stare.
Maybe a little vulgar.
But she's everything you'll need.
Always living to destroy.
Always living to succeed.
Maybe a little vicious.
Sexist she'll always be.
She's more than the world knows.
More than you'll ever see.
A face full of metal.
Ink making marks upon her skin.
She's not afraid to speak.
She's not afraid to sin.
Crazy philosophies.
She lives her own way.
Nothing could ever describe her.
She's more than words could say.
Cut the throat of purity.
Boredom is a waste of time.
Rambling about perfection.
In a simple little rhyme.

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Jan. 22nd, 2007 | 02:03 am

head aches suck<3

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Oct. 30th, 2006 | 11:17 pm

so everythings okay, theyre goin to try a surgery through my belly button, and hopefully it all goes good and i have a life and future :) only bad thing is i may have to take a shot that makes me go through menopause for 6 months after the belly button surgery goin to my uterus and ovaries, but hey its only 6 months and its NOT a hysterectomy so in awhile everything will be normal!

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May. 4th, 2006 | 09:50 pm

So I'm back from new york, I forgot to update..but yeah...Grandpa is dying slowly, family is a mess, I'm stressing out, and I'm sick of this place!! I move around the 23rd of this month, i think it will work, or atleast I hope so...is it normal to wanna kill ur boyfriend every now and then? ...lol he and I fight...we fight ALOT~~!!! but that doesnt matter what matters is we are in love yay!!!

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Apr. 18th, 2006 | 11:30 am

so i woke up to an emergency call from my gynocologist...saying I HAD to come in today at 2:30 for a emergency discussion, she wuldnt give details over the phone..I'm guessing the 9 pieces the cut off my cervix proved the cancer spread therfore now they may have to take things out of me...I'm so scared to go in there today..I'm nervous and I still got like 2 hours left to wait...gahh. I leave for new york tomorrow...so Im sure i'll be leaving with alot on my damn mind after I hear wut she has to tell me. I really like my gyno tho, she is super good at explaining things and she draws diagrams and everything for me so atleast I'll understand what she tells me..I guess we'll see in a few hours what is going on...

wish me luck.

No kids for Kyra heh.


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Mar. 28th, 2006 | 01:52 am

You scored as Penis. You are attracted to the: penis. You are a penis man/woman.












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Mar. 21st, 2006 | 08:01 pm

this is pretty true!

30 things you'll never hear a woman say.

1. You know, I've been complaining a lot lately. I don't blame you for ignoring me.

2. The new girl in my office is a real beauty, and a stripper too, I invited her over for dinner on Friday.

3. While you were in the bathroom, they went for it on fourth down and missed. If they can hold them to a field goal they'll still cover.

4. Bar food again! Kick ass.

5. I liked that wedding even more than ours. Your ex-girlfriend has class.

6. That girl is wearing the same outfit as I am. Cool, I'm gonna go over and talk to her.

7. Let's just leave the toilet seat "up" at all times, then you don't have to mess with it anymore.

8. I've decided to buy myself a boob job. How big do you want'em?

9. It's only the third quarter, you should order a couple more pitchers.

10. Honey, come here! Watch me do a Tequila Shot off of Stephanie's bare ass.

11. My mother is going to take care of the tab, so order another round for you and your friends.

12. I'm so happy with my new hairstyle, I don't think I'll ever change it again.

13. Damn! I love when my pillow smells like your cigars and beer.

14. You are so much smarter than my father.

15. If we're not going to have sex, then you have to let me watch football.

16. Are you sure you've had enough to drink?

17. I've decided to stop wearing clothes around the house.

18. You're so sexy when you're hung over.

19. I'd rather watch football and drink beer with you than go shopping.

20. Let's subscribe to Hustler.

21. I'll be out painting the house.

22. I love it when you ride your Harley, I just wish you had more time to ride.

23. Honey, our new neighbor's daughter is sunbathing again, come see!

24. No, No, I'll take the car to have the oil changed.

25. Your mother is way better than mine.

26. Do me a favor, forget the stupid Valentine's Day thing and buy yourself something.

27. Listen, I make enough money for the both of us, why don't you retire.

28. You need your sleep ya big silly, now stop getting up for the night feedings.

29. Look! My ass is fatter than yours!

30. Let's get rid of my friends and keep all of yours.

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Mar. 21st, 2006 | 03:11 pm

Ahh I'm so bored..im in a letzs get a piercing mood..or two..haha grr Im really pissed that I culdnt get my hip piercings when I was in new york last week..I wanted them but the doctor said to wait til after surgery...so I hav to get them next visit! E veryone thinks im crazy when I say a hip surface piercing..I guess because they're not seen often..but I think they're GORGEOUS! heres a pic of the piercings I want..yayyness...one more month lol but Im goin to swell like a blowfish!<3 And I kno that since its a surface piercing..it's going to hurt..specially since they use long barbells..but oh well Im a big girl, I can take it!


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Mar. 18th, 2006 | 12:22 pm

Let me be the one to breathe this tyme..We're all kandy-koated on the outside. A dream without a wish, a smile without a price, what about manipulation! Smothered in deceit, these scars will eventually fade, but for now I'll take a deep breath and ponder the past.  The world is just too typikal, My will is just too strong. I changed for the better, why do I miss what made me worst? Maybe I'm just entwining myself in spiderwebs of dekay...maybe the truth is I liked it that way. Choke on that swelling, we all know the lies..noone gets out alive..everyone fuckin dies<3 From disasters to dreams to lost hope again, maybe it's a part of lyfe, but I'm a long ways from home. I wanna crush your ego the way they crushed myne. Wipe away those tears..noone can save you from urself. It's survival of the fittest, only the strong survive<3 Maybe I should tell you just how much I love to see you cry. The rain is falling..and so are you.  Certain cirumstances ask for pain.  Rage, Hate, spit out what you dispise...it will always find it's way back inside again. Is it so wrong to say I want to rip out your still beating heart just so I can say it's myne? Maybe I'm just a fiend for everything I culd never have. A pill to cause a smile, an effekt of total bliss...Maybe I should just be a junkie.<3.  I sure do know how to spit out those lies. A look of deceit, a touch of lost faith, here's a pinch of misery straight from my heart. I think I spoke too soon, I think you just don't get it...  I want glorified horror, I want kandy-koated pain, fairy-tales are only for my dreams. I refuse to exist until I destrukt all that you are. Fade into yesterday, Dance unto today..the stars are twinkling and they're screaming out my name. Hidden guilt, unmentionable fears, we all suffer from poor impulse control. Cover me with makeup..make me a lyttle prettier than what I pretend to be. A new face, A new heart..if only change was for amusement. Please exscuse my tolerance..I'm what you call a lyttle dysfunktional. Rejekted since birth, spoiled with fear...a life where love is everything but what it's supposed to be. Cut me with your sharpest knife..maybe you culd make me laugh. Failure stains my lips, destruktion tames my soul..close your eyes, I promise this will hurt. Wet between the thighs, Wretched in the face..I'm not your average beauty qween...I'm the most appauling creature you'll ever see.<3  And I kissed the stars then pulled the trigger...now I'm standing above silence and admiring your insides.

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